nO mOrE gOoDnYtE sOnG FoR mE???

ok tis tyme we talk bout some1 lak... the person yg aku ader cyter sket tyme 1st2 post blog nih... some1 yg dtg balek n make me serabot urgh!!! mcm chipsmore!

mybe tuh kelebihan yg dye ader swarer cdap... pandai men guitar, piano, drum, wat lagu... n dye memg penyanyi n komposer pon... ingat lagi b4 tembok besar ni terbina between us... tiap2 mlm he'll sing a song 4 me... lagu yg dye wat tok aku... lagu yg nak perform... lagu baru... akular jd org 1st yg dgr... awl2 even kol 3 pg ker 5 pg ker pas abes recording dye sanggop call jus 2 sing a gudnyte song for me... ingat lagy lagu mencintaimu... dye nyanyi dlm keta kat parking lotx tok aku... n maseh ingat lg biler 1st tyme jumpe dye nyanyi lgu yg dye wat tok aku tol2 kat tlinga nih... masok tlinga kanan tutup tlinge kiri... ingat smpai skarang...

aku memang jenis x kesah pon dgn long distance relationship nieyh... sbb seyesly i can make it... but not 4 guys i tink... memglar rindu tp skrg kan dah modern skype 3g all tat ader... tp guy msty lar rser x ckop kan... diorg nak yg 24hours depan mater kot... dulu hari2 kot webcam jer... dye nyanyi maen gitar... n disebabkan dye jugaklar aku suker sgt lagu2 faizal tahir...

but since 3 months ago we all start renggang... all happened bcos he joined 1 reality tv kat astro tuh... b4 masok tuh he gets so excited... pray n asked me to pray for him... wut can i do? im just afraid of losing him but i need to trust on his talent... he said he'll never 4get me...but? hurm ayat yg aku slaloo ckp... biarlar org ingat i nih peminat gyler u...

b4 dye join tuh... ary2 kitorg webcam.... even dye seems cm bz sgt maken lamer mken jaoh tp dye try cntct.. aku da aser cm aku nih terhegeh2 dah... tular guys never b da same as starting kenal dulu... awl2 diorg yg terhegeh semacam.. lamer2? ya... biler masok tuh ader r gak dye send msg kol 5 pg ker bru lek shooting penat jus in 3 msgs only ok aku phm... then next wik nyer call aku n joking sometink... it enuf to make me smile 4 1 whole day... after tat diyam balek... jus aku cm peminat gyler tgk dye kat tv... x lamer lepas tuh after reherseal konsert he webcam me... happy to see him dah byk brubah rmbot dah laen... tp he looks so sellfish... bz with other person... ngadu psl sane sini story itu ini but never listen to mine... n u noe wut he forget tat my bsday is only in 2 more days! OMG wut a BF is tat???

n tis hari raya... u came back asking for forgiveness... u admit tat u made lotx of mistake n i xder wat salah per2 kt u... but still i can be cool... u explained everything but its too late cyg... aku bency diri aku even dye dah byk gyler ignore n saketkan haty aku... biler aku tgk dye ary tuh dlm haty nih sek ckp 'Ya Allah kenapalah aku syg laki mcm nieyh!!!" yup he's a master he's a master to read wut am i thinking... he know i miss him so much... he noe im mad... n 4 once after all those pain yg dye wat kt aku... aku kalah... memg dr dulu dye harap aku marah dye... n i did tat mara but it more to sadness for 1st tyme he sees my tears goin down... I hate him seeing tat... im not a weak gurl... i hope i can be a miss strong... ya but i tink i am wrong... aku sajer try ignore dye n x layan dye dr dulu n he admitted dye saket... r u sure? aku sajer wat mcm tuh biar dye x cari aku lg... aku x kuwat... aku xder saper2 yg faham aku from the inside jus like him... OMG feels like crying... n on tat day he sings a lot of song 4 me till morning... ya I miss him tis tyme I miss someone who still alive n Im moving to someone in real life... but the guy is not worth it 4 me... only 1 i said to him if u want the forgiveness face me... come to jb...will he?? i dont tink so... dye terlalu tamax terlalu berahsie... terlalu berjaga2... tkot kalaw org taw dye dah ader gf t x laku? so u can go on wif ur life... n again im a stupid gurl bcos I love such a guy like u n i damn in love with u... there's no 1 can replace u 4 a gudnyte song 4 me....only 4 a gudnyte song...

Faizal Tahir - Selamat Malam (MTV @ Muzik25)

Hujan...

Hurm arynih hujan lg... lebat pulak tuh... cm beser kol 5 lebey baru aku abes class... law last year once in a month abes jer class aku twos mek cab g jumper G jap pon jd lar... so b4 tuh pg2 lg g class aku da cyap2 bw slendang sume g class... nak jumpe G mestylar kene cntik2 kan...

Tp... arynih hujan trun lg... mesty tanah G dah basah kan... mcm maner nak dtg... erm da sthun x jumpe G agk2 ade x rumput2 yg da tumbuh??? mesty family G ade dtg mlawat kan... rayer arytuh... owg jer x dtg2 lg... slaloo law owg dtg ley owg cabot rumput2 tuh... berseri sket...wangey dengan bunger2 yg ditabur...

InsyaAllah hari esok kiter jumper key... harap esok petang hujan berhenti wt sementara wktu... erm xtaw naper biler2 pikir2 balek mesty raser neves nk jumpe G... dah lamer x jumper... agk2 ingat lagi x aku kat tempat G... 7, 8, blok 5 =) hurm... hope G maseh mngalu2kan owg dtg... mcm dulu... dr jaoh dah nmpak G even banyak sgt yg laen dekat situ...

Erm ckp pasal hujan nieyh teringat 8 thn dulu masa kiter jumper... tyme tuh hujan lebat sgt2... so kiter terstuck kt situh agk berejam lar dpt buwal2 lamer ngan G... ingat lg G bw scoot biru dtg situ ye r dak skolar lgkan... law x silap no yer JGY 1822... tol x?? erm ntahlar... yg pleng x ley luper... maser tuh hujan lebat sgt2... then g sajer2 jer ckp hujan2lar romantik... haha romantik ker??? ase cam owg nih statue jer ckp pon x... segan kot... Sampai skarang kalaw hujan turun mcm nieyh msty owg teringat kat G...

Hujan... perkara yg sama berlaku masa hari pengebumian G... Jumaat tuh cuaca redup jer dr pg hinggalar G disembahyangkan di masjid... Alhamdulillah ramai yg sembahyangkan G maser tuh termasoklar abg long owg... tp masa pengebumian cuaca twos bertukar cerah n angen bertiop lembot jer...mcm nak mnguji hati yg sedang dikuwatkan tok x menitiskan air mata depan org ramai... x elok kan... tp owg tetap nmpak mcm xde pe2... xperlar biar G jer yg tawu ape yg owg rase... selesai semuenyer hujan lebat turun bale

k seakan2 memberkati pemergian G...

G I still miss u... lamer x mimpi G dtg mcm dulu... maybe sbb owg yg dah semakin jaoh dr G... maafkan owg... I miss u so much dtglar lg dlm mimpi2 owg... even G x penah ckp aper2 itu da lebeh dr mncukupi...

Avril Lavigne Slipped Away live

ReLEaSe TeNsIoN???

hohoho... sumer org ader mcm2 cara nak release tension kan??? tok org yg agk mengong cm aku nieyh...cara aku release tension boley mggemokkan aku... hohoho org len law streess cedey or tension kompem x selera mam... tp aku lak terbalek law tension aser cam nak mngunyah jer... dapat geget org agy besh puwas aty biler dapat benamkan gigi tareng aku yg selaloo di asah nieyh ke dlm kulit org... wakakak yesh!!! im miss vampire!!! huhuhu

so tok melayan kepaler otak aku yg srabot nieyh... aku pon g mam McD fav koo... kat CT square ditemani kak fara yg terchenta... huhuhu ops!!! luper start from mggu nieyh aku ade azam baru nak diet... so slowly key aku mam half jer sumer tuh x abes pon kak fara yg jadik mgse kene abeskan haha cean beliaw... n jap g kol 6.30 nak masok wyg cyter piranha... msty x best tgk kt wyg byk yg sensored haha...

aku ngan kak fara memg ske kuar beduwe law tyme pas class ngan2 uniform kitorg kuar wat muker slumber jer... pdulik lar org sekeliling yg tiber2 nak saket tuh... kitorg wat muker toye jer huhuhu... ok tuh cara aku release tension... g mam, tgk wyg, karoke puwas2 x kesahlar sumbang nak maty ker aper... swarer katak lg muliyer!!! xpon aku g men bowling even aku nieyh ratu longkang pon haha...

law aku cdeyh lak aku mesty cari tempat tggi2 then tgk bawah... ops!! bukan nak terjun ok... tp 1st aku x sker biler org tgk the lemah side dlm diri aku nih... yelar konon2 luaran xder prasaan kan... lg 1 sebab biler g tempat tggi ley kene angen tiop sket aty akuw nih... n aku tgk bawah at least aku ley tgk life2 yg still moving... cm pokok gerak2 kene tiop angen... org jalan2 mcm2 ragam xpon tgk keta gerak2... for me it means my life olso must go on... so dun ever give up cdey arynih x bermakner hari esok aku xkan senyom lg... kesimpulannyer nak g tempat jaoh x dapat so aku naek lar tempat tggi... jaoh gak tuh!!! law dah kijer n ader wet n keta sniri kompem aku twos g mghilang diri jaoh2... hahaha dadaa sumer!!!

MiSs mIsErAbLe...

hurm xtawlar naper arynih aku cdeyh cgt2... n lately nih sek nak emo jer... mybe life circle aku nga smpai kt part emo balek kot... law dlu skul rendah aku jd agak baran then after G g tyme skola menengah aku start jd pasif jer... sker wat hal sniri n malas nak mek taw hal org... even org cari gadow ker kutok ker aku still cm xder prasaan... laki saketkan aty pon aku wat bdow jer... setitik aer mate pon aku x tyg kt org...

tp naper lately nih sek emo jer??? xley nak control prasaan... mybe sebab dah lamer x g jumper G kot... so ketenangan tuh pon dah hilang... hurm biler mcm nih lar yg wat maken windoo kat G!!! G naperlar G xder... hurm xbek lar ckp cmtuh... kosongnyer duniyer nieyh!!! cam xder saper2 jer... family tyme rayer sek bertekak jer... yg jd mgsernyer???

hurm... luaran sumer nampak bahagye jer cm xder masalah happy go lucky tp sumer tuh hampeh!!! dlm ni kosong taw x kosong... biarlarr org nak ckp kurang kaseh syg ker aper ker memang tuh kenyataan... idop dah 21 thun tp sruper cm x penah ader BF pon... biarlar org nak kater per ker... bukan memilih bukan aper tp da memg xley nak wat mcm mner... ibu pon x bg ader bf sumer ikot ckp ibu... ibu suh kijer kat jb dok jb jer jgn jaoh2 ikot jer cm lembu kene tindik hidung... dulu abg akak sumer ckp smpai biler nk dok bawah ketiak ibu...

erm ntahlar aper nak jd life nih pon xtaw... yg aku taw memang aku serabot... penat jadi mcm org yg xder perasaan nieyh... t tunjuk sket perasaan mulerlar ader yg kecik aty ader yg kondemm... aku x mek taw hal korang jgn sebok hal aku boley x???

I MiSh U G...

erm... hari nieyh dah masok rayer ke-11 tok thon nieyh... mcm biase no 11 adelar no yg pleng aku bency... 11 March 2005 tarikh yg x dapat aku lupekan seumor idop aku...

erm raser sedih terharu n mcm2 lg... dah lamer sgt rasernyer aku x pegy jumper G... kalaw thon lepas hampir setiap bulan pergy jumper G... rayer ke2 lg dah pergy jumper dah... semakin lamer jumper semakin aku kuwat untuk berbual2 dgn G... mnceritakan aper yg berlaku dlm hidup aku... raser tenang raser dekat n raser rindu sgt2.... tp thun nieyh??? dah rayer ke-11 tp aku maseh x mmpunyai kesempatan tok jumper G...

G maafkan owg... owg windoo G sgt2... owg sentiase doakan G bahagye di sana... hanya iringan doa yg mampu owg berikan... even dah lebih 5 thn G pergy owg maseh terusik kalaw teringat kan G... owg nak sgt kalaw 1 hari nanti biler owg dah ader pngganty G... owg nak bw dye teman owg melawat G n kenalkan dye kat G... owg nak buktikan yg owg telah berubah x mcm dulu lg... owg da mampu teruskan kehidupan n owg tawu itu juga yg G harapkan...

InsyaAllah jika ada kesempatan owg akan dtg menemui G... Salam sayang buat Allahyarham Mohd Fauzi Bin Kasbol...(08 Feb 1987 - 11 Mac 2005) ~Al-Fatihah~

Dreams of best friends die with crash

New Straits Times, Mar 12, 2005 | by R. Sittamparam

JOHOR BARU, Fri. - Two best friends had gone to a party to celebrate

their Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia results last night after registering for

tertiary education when disaster struck.

An accident put paid to Mohd Fauzi Kasbol and Aizat Alias's dreams of

going on to a career in the technical field and becoming a mathematics

teacher respectively.

The 18-year-olds, who had often studied together at Mohd Fauzi's home

in Bandar Uda Baru, died after the car they were travelling in crashed

into a tree along Jalan Skudai.

Mohd Fauzi and another passenger, Siti Aishah Zainuddin, 22, died on

the spot while Aizat succumbed to head injuries on the way to the

Sultanah Aminah Hospital.

The classmates at Sekolah Menengah Teknik Johor Baru were believed to

have gone earlier to an Internet Cafe in the city centre to register

online for higher studies.

Mohd Fauzi's mother, Normah Bujang, 49, said Mohd Fauzi was happy with

the one A and five Bs obtained in the examination.

She said Fauzi had discussed his future with her and older sister,

Shamsu Haibah.

"He agreed that he should continue with higher education."

Normah said Aizat, who had obtained 3As, had indicated that he had

wanted to become a mathematics teacher.

ST 12 - Saat Terakhir [High Quality]

Try back hobby zaman dolu2...

erm ni 1st tyme nak tulis blog actually aku bukan jenis yg ske sharing nih... sharing is not caring ok... tp aku sker gyler bacer blog org mcm diary lak... so nak try lar... erm 4 me tulis blog ni cam tulis diary... for my blog lar org len punyer lantaklar diorg nak tulis aper... xtaw nak start mcm mner cos sumer mende yg aku nak story da lepas2 dah pon... aku ske diyamkan n blaja sniri2 jer... just aku aser baru2 nih aku cm nak jd org laen dah...

law dulu frenship aku ngan gurl slaloo close nak maty... aku sker sgt bg muker even diorg kutuk blkg ker hape ker aslkn diorg tak wat taik depan2 sudah... but sumer frenship yg close nak maty tuh akn berakhir dgn 1 tembok besar... so sudden da x rapat...  xtawlar naper but slh 1 drpd nyer sbb guys... pleaselarr... frnship lg penting kot...

bout guys plak dr dulu smpai skg guys are better as frenz...yup! member laki lg rmai dr pompuan kot.. mybe sbb brutal??ahah??? ade yg ckp cmtu xtaw... n 1 more thing law bout cintan2 nih aku memg naseb mlg jer xtawlar naper balasan aper ker... tp all that mke me hard to trust guy... law guy yg aku memg taw xley blah tuh memg kompem dpt ignorance yg terlampaw dr aku... bukan per jus xnk bg ape2 t ckp aku ni ape lak kan... just sebaliknyer law dah sker aku lak jd bodoh n bg muker sgt smpai diorg x rety nak appreciate... till 1 tyme bler aku da blah brular dtg blek n wt aku srabot jer... tats wut is happening now... aku serabot!!! naper mesty nak dtg balek!!!

For me??? kuwatkan semangat!!!